I'm increasingly tiring of my lack of landing a job after a year of being unemployed. I've sent so many resumes and applications out that half the time I don't even remember what I applied for. It seems that I am not qualified for anything...I mean, I couldn't even land a job at Dunkin' Donuts. Now, that would make anyone feel like an utter failure, but I digress, I am looking and I am trying to remain positive.
Sam and I seem to fight all the time. I usually am the one that flips out over the tiniest things. I feel like either one of us is always getting frustrated. I usually blame the stress that I feel financially to my attitude. I know, it's not right. Lately I've become jealous to the point where any time she talks with or hangs out with another girl I get suspicious. Just tonight she went on break with a co-worker and I accused her of ulterior motives. I mean really? She just went on break with someone! There has definitely been a lack of companionship between us. When Sam gets home from work I'm usually in bed and she stays in the living room watching tv, playing on the computer or playing wii. I just wish that for once she could come to bed and we could snuggle and just talk. I miss just laying and talking.
This Christmas is going to suck this year. I can't afford to get anyone anything for Christmas. I always try and get my immediate family at least something even if it's small. Not this year. I don't even have enough money to bake for my family. When I struggle like this I tend to forget the true meaning and spirit of the holidays. I hope that I can snap out of this funk soon so that I can remember and enjoy the time with family and friends.
Speaking of friends. I feel as though Sam and I don't have many. I feel like we always try to do things and invite our friends and yet most of them just blow us off. My favorite excuse is, "oh I have to work late." That's funny. Just the other day you told me that you had that day off. We have all these fair weather friends or people that will hang out with us when it's convenient for them. When we decline we're met with huffs and puffs about how we never do anything and people are always asking us to do stuff. Just once I want people to stick with what they say they are going to do. Stop friggin' blowing me off! You don't want to hang with me? Just say so. Don't leave me hanging.
Okay. I feel better now that I've vented. I need a good stiff drink.
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Flu makes me blue!
I've tried so hard lately to keep myself healthy and sickness free. I babysat for a little guy two weeks ago and he had a fever and a runny nose but I made sure I kept my kisses and hugs few and far between. It looks as though the flu bug has caught up with me despite my hard work and flu prevention methods. Drat!
Sam and I are in the process of looking for an apartment. We saw a really cute one last Tuesday but we decided that it was a tad too pricey for us, especially since I'm still only collecting unemployment. Surprisingly there have been quite a few 1 bedroom apartments that are fairly reasonable and they include EVERYTHING! I'm talking heat, hot water, electricity, cable and wifi! What the heck?! Most of these places are in downtown Portland. In all my years of living in Maine I have never lived in downtown P-town. Not gonna lie, I'm kind of excited about being able to walk to buy groceries and visit museums on nice days without having to hop in the car.
I have sent my resume to so many companies in the past five weeks! Seriously, NO ONE is hiring it seems. I opened the newspaper the other day and there were only a few help wanted ads. I figure the state will continue to help me out financially as long as I continue to show them my efforts. I used to be bummed when I would get a new job because I always felt like I was missing out on something fun and exciting. Now that I have been out of work for three months, I can safely say, I am not missing out on anything!
Alright, well. I guess I should go check my facebook and maybe change my status.
Sam and I are in the process of looking for an apartment. We saw a really cute one last Tuesday but we decided that it was a tad too pricey for us, especially since I'm still only collecting unemployment. Surprisingly there have been quite a few 1 bedroom apartments that are fairly reasonable and they include EVERYTHING! I'm talking heat, hot water, electricity, cable and wifi! What the heck?! Most of these places are in downtown Portland. In all my years of living in Maine I have never lived in downtown P-town. Not gonna lie, I'm kind of excited about being able to walk to buy groceries and visit museums on nice days without having to hop in the car.
I have sent my resume to so many companies in the past five weeks! Seriously, NO ONE is hiring it seems. I opened the newspaper the other day and there were only a few help wanted ads. I figure the state will continue to help me out financially as long as I continue to show them my efforts. I used to be bummed when I would get a new job because I always felt like I was missing out on something fun and exciting. Now that I have been out of work for three months, I can safely say, I am not missing out on anything!
Alright, well. I guess I should go check my facebook and maybe change my status.
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Off With a Bang!
I had another blog out there in cyberspace but I decided that I wanted to start over fresh. I like starting over. I like new things. Every few months I buy a new journal because I like seeing the blank pages, knowing that eventually those pages will be filled with my thoughts.
I am loving living in Maine right now. I honestly never thought that I would want to move back here to live semi-permanently but here I am, loving every minute of it. We've been getting hit pretty hard lately with the snow storms. Snow is the one thing I don't like about living in Maine...that, and the fact that it gets frigid and stays frigid until about April.
I am currently living with my brother to help him out during the winter months. He had been laid off about six months ago and with the economy the way it is, jobs have been pretty scarce. We've struggled for a few months to pay the mortgage, the heating and electricity, the cable/Internet and the other necessary evil, the cell phone. My mother has helped us out as much as she can but there's only so much she can do especially since she has bills and rent she has to pay.
I worked at a daycare center for the better part of last year. I really enjoyed the kids and the staff. For the first time in a long time I really enjoyed getting up and going to work. I was certainly spoiled too. I had a nice set schedule where I had weekends off. The daycare was bought by a larger, chain daycare company and the employees were told two days before Christmas that we were out of jobs and if we wanted to work for this new company we would have to go through the application process. Needless to say, the holidays were pretty tight financially and I didn't get the job with the new daycare. I don't know how I feel about daycare chains. This particular daycare has about ten different locations all over southern Maine and they're adding four more in the coming months. I just think the level of care becomes compromised when you have a chain of the same thing everywhere. Most daycare centers up here are closing anyway due to the fact that many parents are losing their jobs and can't afford childcare.
Due to the fact that I was unable to land that job at the daycare, and I have been unable to find anything paying enough to make getting up in the morning worthwhile, I have begun receiving unemployment checks. Now, I don't like having to rely on the government to pay my bills and my rent and put food on the table, but I will admit that it is nice to have a check every week until I can find suitable employment. Thank you State of Maine!
So, right now I'm enjoying this little hiatus from work and catching up on some much anticipated reading.
I am loving living in Maine right now. I honestly never thought that I would want to move back here to live semi-permanently but here I am, loving every minute of it. We've been getting hit pretty hard lately with the snow storms. Snow is the one thing I don't like about living in Maine...that, and the fact that it gets frigid and stays frigid until about April.
I am currently living with my brother to help him out during the winter months. He had been laid off about six months ago and with the economy the way it is, jobs have been pretty scarce. We've struggled for a few months to pay the mortgage, the heating and electricity, the cable/Internet and the other necessary evil, the cell phone. My mother has helped us out as much as she can but there's only so much she can do especially since she has bills and rent she has to pay.
I worked at a daycare center for the better part of last year. I really enjoyed the kids and the staff. For the first time in a long time I really enjoyed getting up and going to work. I was certainly spoiled too. I had a nice set schedule where I had weekends off. The daycare was bought by a larger, chain daycare company and the employees were told two days before Christmas that we were out of jobs and if we wanted to work for this new company we would have to go through the application process. Needless to say, the holidays were pretty tight financially and I didn't get the job with the new daycare. I don't know how I feel about daycare chains. This particular daycare has about ten different locations all over southern Maine and they're adding four more in the coming months. I just think the level of care becomes compromised when you have a chain of the same thing everywhere. Most daycare centers up here are closing anyway due to the fact that many parents are losing their jobs and can't afford childcare.
Due to the fact that I was unable to land that job at the daycare, and I have been unable to find anything paying enough to make getting up in the morning worthwhile, I have begun receiving unemployment checks. Now, I don't like having to rely on the government to pay my bills and my rent and put food on the table, but I will admit that it is nice to have a check every week until I can find suitable employment. Thank you State of Maine!
So, right now I'm enjoying this little hiatus from work and catching up on some much anticipated reading.
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